Most of my readers already know that I got pneumonia last week, and that it will take a while for me to fully recover. I am grateful for the prayers of my friends and acquaintances, those who know me from my blog and from Facebook. I wondered a little over the weekend whether I was going to die. I wondered if I’d been unfaithful with the extra time God gave me by pulling me through leukemia.
I drive myself pretty hard. I put a lot of effort into following Jesus, but I see where I can improve.
Fortunately, I’m well taught. We live by the power of the Spirit, and God is not tallying up our minor transgressions to read them back to us on the last day. I got the “pneumonia-as-punishment” ideas out of my head.
Quick story: I read a book a couple years ago that really motivated me to become disciplined, especially in prayer. I was working at increasing my time in prayer and trying to have a fervent, intercessory spirit.
One day, not long after I started this, God said to me, “What are you doing?”
I said, “Becoming fervent in prayer.”
God said, “No, you’re not. You’re multiplying words thinking I’ll hear you. Please go back to praying like you know me.”
Well, that’s the conversation I think I had with God, anyway.
Note: I told you about the pneumonia primarily to tell you I may be sharing the articles of others more than my own until I’m fully recovered.
I really liked this story of the Orthodox Apostle to America, John Veniaminov, so I’m sharing it with whoever reads this blog.